The Masquerade

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Jocelyn noticed the almost imperceptive flick of Valentine’s gaze, felt it graze the pale flesh of her bosom. Hot embarrassment rose in her cheeks. For the first time that night, she regretted wearing such a tight fitting dress that showed off everything. For the nine hundredth time in her life, she wished her skin wasn’t so pale, so transparent, that a blush sent a rage of color through her entire face. She said nothing of it, just glared harshly over at him, as if she was trying to send him to Hell with a mere glance.

“Well, Mr. Morgenstern,” she snapped, her green eyes alive with frustration and anger, “I can hardly be absent from my family’s ball, can I?” She glared at him, swirling her champagne around in her glass. 

Don’t flatter yourself, he wanted to say as her cheek turned a true rosy shade of red at his attentions. You’re a woman and that is all that I have noticed. She could be anyone for that matter. He was not an animal, but she had caught him in a moment of weakness. Her hot gaze on him was even more delectable than anything else he had noticed. Still, the back of his mind called: she looks breakable like porcelain.

“Miss Fairchild,” Valentine started, his voice level, as he refused to let his gaze stray from hers. He held his chin up and looked at her critically. “I do believe I am an invited and honoured guest in your house and as such, I deserve respect. I wonder what your mother would say if I mentioned how wicked and intolerable you’ve been. I doubt she would like hearing so all that much.”

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The Masquerade

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Jocelyn nearly choked on her champagne at the sound of Valentine’s voice, a fit of coughs racking her entire body. Her eyes widened and her fingers curled into tight fists, her blood red nails, swathed in lacy fabric, dug into the palms of her hands. She put down her glass, coughing one last time, before turning to face him.

Valentine looked somehow different, transformed from the last time they had been face to face. There was a kind of strain in the muscle of his jaw, like he was doing everything he could to hold himself as still as a feather because if he stopped, he would simply pull out a dagger and slit her throat on the spot. It scared her as much as it intrigued her. Emotion, even one so subtle, was rare in his face. But most of it was concealed by a pluming mask of grey and black, with a curved beak and slits for his black, glittering eyes. Maybe she was just imagining things. Her mind tended to do that.

With a sick flip of her stomach, she realized they were matching. Fucking hell, she thought violently to herself. All she wanted was for Lucian to show up and sweep her off her feet. But alas, he wasn’t coming until the dancing began because there would be no place set for him in the banquet hall. The longing for his familiar laugh, his warm presence, his unguarded affection was almost becoming overwhelming as she stared angrily into Valentine’s eyes.

“Trust me, sweetheart,” she said venomously, invigorated by the alcohol rushing through her system and loosening her tongue, “I don’t want to be here anymore than you do.”

This dinner was turning out to be quite the disaster. At least for him. The other guests seemed to be enjoying themselves, dressed in a flood of brilliant colors, silk and feathers.

Rolling his eyes promptly at Jocelyn’s use of the word sweetheart, he made a hard sound in the back of his throat. Valentine could see his mother enter the dining area next to his father’s side. His father’s arm was wrapped around his mother’s middle, holding close to her side proudly. They looked regal — like a lion and a lioness. For a moment, in that thought, he’d forgotten about the hurricane that was Jocelyn Fairchild.

“Lovely party, Miss Fairchild,” Valentine began, as politely as he possibly could. He couldn’t help but steal a glance at the way her breasts pressed up against the cut of her dress. He quickly looked away. To be driven mad by such desires was not in his nature nor did he want to make it his nature. “That is, aside from your presence here.”

01.01.12

The Masquerade

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Jocelyn bounced down the stairs, a spring in her step. Her dark mask, deep crimson with glitter sprinkled on like fairy dust, slipped slightly and she forced it up with firm, steady hands. She felt many heads turn and many pairs of eyes settle on her and her blood stained lips curled upwards. And then suddenly she recognized shining white blonde hair, dark, icy eyes, and that long jaw that she ached to draw with a kind of muted need.

She spun away from him, her heels clacking sharply against the marble floor as she bunched up her skirts and pushed her way through the crowd. Her eyes set on the dining room and she flew towards it, her pace speeding up. Jocelyn wished to put as much distance between herself and Valentine Morgenstern as she could.

She pushed through the doors, Isaac, the head chef, giving her a friendly smile, and walked, her head held high. Her eyes roved around the room, her heart pounding, as she looked for the tiny card that said “Jocelyn Marie Fairchild”. She found it within minutes, slumping into the chair with a kind of undignified grace that her mother would have abhorred. As soon as her heart stopped beating painfully fast and her shaking nerves came to a slow halt, she realized that she was one of the first people to enter the banquet hall. The rest of them were still in the atrium, trickling in as it reached closer and closer to 7:30, the designated dinner time. She felt kind of stupid, but at least she had gotten rid of those black eyes staring at her, sending prickles of sensation down her bare back.

His heart raced in his chest, beating wildly as she looked at him from behind her mask. The stain that she wore on her lips only enhanced the red tones of her hair. One thing that he could not argue was how breathtakingly beautiful she was. He could taste the champagne, still on his lips, and listened to the click of her shoes as she sped away from him quickly. Valentine swallowed something hard in his throat and wore the sly smirk on his lips proudly.

He would not chase after her. He certainly would not give Jocelyn Fairchild that satisfaction.

Valentine was not among the last to trickle into the dining hall. He had seen Stephen Herondale and Céline Bellefleur continue to flirt with one another when he had left to find his seat. Slinking in, his eyes scanned the table for his name card. He found himself looking at the others in the room. He wondered where Hodge Starkweather was this evening. He had not seen the other boy all night. They often spoke to each other at events like these — otherwise, the events tended to go on much longer than they should.

He sighed and upon finding his seat, he promptly took his place. Only to discover a second later that the seat beside him was already occupied.

“Oh, not you,” he sighed.

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The Masquerade

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Adele Fairchild’s grip on Jocelyn’s wrist was almost painful as the older woman escorted her daughter down to the festivities. Her mother was dressed in a classy bronze dress that highlighted the flecks of amber in her chocolate eyes. Her pale red hair was braided expertly and it fell across her shoulder in a thick rope. Adele looked sharp and fierce, like she had always looked. A kind of refined sophistication seemed to ooze from her. Whereas her daughter was the opposite.

The dress she had picked out with Lucian hugged her chest tightly. When she had taken a glance at herself before she left her room, Jocelyn had been pleasantly surprised to see that she actually looked as though she had breasts in this dress. The deep, bloody crimson offset her dark auburn curls to perfection which were currently piled high on her head, held together with all kinds of intricate pins. In her heels, Jocelyn stood an entire head taller than her mother, which had put a sour expression on Adele’s impassive face. Lacy dark gloves were pulled up to the middle of her upper arms and black diamond drop earrings glittered around her face. Her lips had been swathed in blood red color and she felt them slipping against each other every time she pressed them together. The Fairchild ring was glinting dully on her slender ring finger, a familiar weight in an unfamiliar time. And she mustn’t forget the intricate fishnet tights pressed against the pale flesh of her legs.

“You look ridiculous,” Adele muttered in her daughter’s ear as they reached the marble staircase that would drop them in the center of the party.

“You should see Celine Bellefleur’s dress,” Jocelyn smirked. “Then you’ll be calling me meek.” Her mother’s mouth pressed into a thin line of muted rage.

“You are representing the Fairchild family tonight, buttercup,” she murmured sweetly, resorting to the old pet name in an obvious attempt to guilt her daughter into submission. “Make your mother proud?” Jocelyn gave her mother a wide smile, her teeth glittering like pearls against the bright crimson of her lips. She curtseyed low, her hands bunching in the plush material of her skirt.

“Don’t I always?” she purred, sarcasm dripping from her every word. She pressed a hot kiss to her mother’s cheek before hitching up her dress and gliding down the marble stairs.

He didn’t care much for these parties. Often, he found them tedious and a bore. Simply another way for their families to show off their wealth — something many of them had much of. The Fairchilds, Valentine thought to himself, were a lovely family. At least the generation that threw this party. He couldn’t say many good things about the one that attended the Academy and was a year below his.

No, Valentine had done far too much thinking when it came to Jocelyn Fairchild. She was insolent, pig-headed and he kept insisting to himself that he was bored with her. If he said it enough, he thought it may actually come true — but, so far, it had not. He found his mind wandering to the girl when his tired mind rested at the end of the night. He found himself scouring the hallways for the lovely copper colored hair she possessed. By the Angel, he found himself asking Lucian about the girl.

There was something truly and deeply wrong with him.

He felt sick about her! She was often insulting him and always had an angry glare or a beautiful, clever retort that slipped past those soft-looking rose colored lips. Valentine swallowed just thinking about them now.

Leaning against the doorframe, he took a sip of his drink — careful not to spill any against his half-mask. The mask itself, understated and sharp, portrayed a raven. He though of Hugin and Munin when he had bought it. It complimented his black suit. The shirt he wore underneath was not a wine color, but a crimson red that looked like dark blood under the soft lighting in the Fairchild manor. His long tie was an even darker red, matching his shirt and suit.

Turning, he felt his lips curl upwards in an unconscious, nearly soft expression. By Raziel, those were those auburn curls he dreamt about attached to a silly little girl he wanted to forget about. Silently, he watched her.

His fate was sealed.

He was damned and it was all Jocelyn Fairchild’s doing.

31.12.11

Lucian & Valentine || Training Session

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Lucian couldn’t remember the last time he’d woken up before dawn. In all his sixteen years of life, Lucian didn’t think he’d ever done so willingly. Usually he was in the business of rolling out of bed, fumbling around in the dark for a clean shirt, and then walking directly to the Academy. He was frequently late - something that Valentine chided him for, stressing the importance of things such as punctuality. 

They’d agreed to meet in one of the training rooms to get an early start before class. It was eerie seeing the Academy completely empty of students with only witchlight casting light and shadows across the long, silent corridors.

Valentine had already been there waiting for him when he arrived. 

“Good morning,” Lucian said, eyeing the blonde boy enviously. Valentine seemed to be completely alert. 

Valentine did not enjoy being kept waiting. Not that he had been waiting all that long for Lucian. A half an hour at most. He had already stretched and prepared his muscles for the day — and, though he had expected it, he truly didn’t need to take an extra fifteen to twenty minutes to do so again. They had agreed to meet early on before classes and he would have preferred to see the other boy early instead of simply on time.

The way the other sagged sleepily added to this disappointment. You must be always alert, Lucian, he thought. Danger may strike at any moment. I could attack you right now and you simply would not be able to defend yourself properly.

Today, they would not be using weapons. Valentine insisted on going back to the basics that Lucian had quite clearly missed through the years.

“Shall we cut past the pleasantries? Not to say we shouldn’t express them later, but I do believe we should start immediately. We’ll likely be cut short today when classes begin. I’ve already stretched and if you don’t want to injure yourself while running, you should too,” Valentine replied.

He imagined they would be running laps about the Academy quite often and he hoped to persuade the other in taking on more training after school along with the studies. Perhaps he needed to build up to that. He caught the look on Lucian’s face. Clearly, they couldn’t just throw themselves into training.

“Good morning, Lucian,” he said pleasantly. “We’ll have plenty of time to discuss things while doing laps.”

31.12.11

I tried drawing Lucian yesterday.

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thoughtandmemory:

I see your combined years of decent morality, breeding and education haven’t gotten in the way of your benightedness. Your concern is trite and trivial.

Insults, Jocelyn, are reserved to the masses who lack those faculties and traits of superiority. You’re acting plebeian and I am truly embarrassed on your behalf.

Insults imply that there is no truth behind them, that I’m merely goading you for my enjoyment. That isn’t the case. I am telling you facts about your personality, just like stubbornness and “pigheadedness” are a part of mine. If you cannot accept that you are an extremely flawed being, then I see no hope for your future. You see yourself as a prince, who sits atop the world and waits for it to be his. I see you as a beggar, desperately latching onto anyone who will help you with your mad vision.

Unfortunately, again, you’ve been misinformed. Insults do not imply any lack of truth, only to treat with a contemptuous affront. Where as I spoke of my impression of you, things I’ve only seen in my brief and tumultuous interactions with you, you’ve resulted to moral twaddle. I can very well accept your impression of me is one of unwelcome character, but I have never assumed any true actuality regarding your nature.

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I tried drawing Lucian yesterday.

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You need someone to tell you how much of an idiot you are. Everyone else worships the ground you walk on but I see no reason why they should; you’re as cold as you are arrogant and almost incapable of befriending anyone. You just use people and make them think it’s friendship. You’re insulting, calculating, and manipulative and I loathe you with every fiber of my being.

I see your combined years of decent morality, breeding and education haven’t gotten in the way of your benightedness. Your concern is trite and trivial.

Insults, Jocelyn, are reserved to the masses who lack those faculties and traits of superiority. You’re acting plebeian and I am truly embarrassed on your behalf.

17.12.11

I tried drawing Lucian yesterday.

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thoughtandmemory:

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thoughtandmemory:

You’ve put your work (your self, as you put it) out there, have you not? In doing so, you’ve opened yourself up, voluntarily, to such criticisms. Clearly, you’ve taken this awfully personally, Jocelyn, but I have no need to apologize. You’ve invited others in. Mine is simply an opinion.

An opinion I never asked for. I find you mildly repugnant, arrogant, and disgustingly single minded. When could that ever be interpreted as “Please give me an in depth explanation of your opinion on my art style”.

You’ve wounded me. Please, tell me more.

Also, you’re quite erroneous. In exposing your art to others, the world has every opportunity to respond in kind to what you bring into it. That’s justly, is it not?

Not when the one responding is a complete asshole with total disregard to feelings or intention.

Is there something you’re hoping to accomplish with that comment along with the many others you’ve implied of my nature? I cannot image what it could possibly be.

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(Source: thoughtandmemory, via notquitetheopenbook-deactivated)

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